by Wenona Gardner
I have been dreaming
of a special relationship
with a great man.
I am the type of person
that hoped to meet the
man of my dreams as children
get married young and
then celebrate our 50th wedding anniversary.
I dreamt of finding my Twin Flame.
I dreamt of writing an epic book about true love
about my love life that I was living.
However, these things have never happened
for me and I am disappointed.
I am currently 42 years old and
my birthday is next month
where I will be turning 43 years old.
I still haven’t found that special guy.
Sometimes I haven’t found that one true love.
I would write romance stories
and I would try to create in a fictional book
of an ideal romance story.
I look around the men in my life and wonder
if he is the one who will support me.
I never was able to have children
and I fear I never will
because time marches on.
I get sad about being alone.
The relationships that I have had
have all been abusive.
I have grown afraid of having
the next relationship.