A journey through downtown Waukesha
For me signing the Creativity Contract is most important part of “The Artist’s Way” or “Walking in This World” journey. While yes I am agreeing to use the tools, readings, tasks, and check-ins more importantly I am making a promise to myself to take excellent self care of myself. That I get proper amount of sleep, wholesome nourishing food, and gentle companionship are vital for my creative recovery journey.
I decorated my Creativity Contract and placed it near my computer desk where I can prominently see it. I like the colors because they’re so vibrant and alive. I selected this particular image because of several reasons. It reminded me of the story of Footprints in the Sand. The direction of the foot prints also makes me think of Creator walking towards me or that I am walking closer to myself get to know myself better.
Have you signed your creativity contract? Have you decorated your creative contract and made it your own? Have you hung up your creativity contract where you can see it and remind yourself of your commitment to yourself?
Greetings fellow travelers,
I took a test asking “Where you are at your creative spiritual journey” by soul artist Laura Hollick at http://www.soulartstudio.com/quiz.php?n=2 Laura Hollick is creator of Soul Art studio, a business devoted to guiding people to create their life and business as an expression of their creative spirit. When I took my test I received the result that I was being initated into my spiritual journey.
These are the questions and following with my answers.
- How would you describe your life now? You feel deeply challenged and overwhelmed by everything that is happening right now.
- What makes your heart sing? Being creative.
- What are you most proud of? Experiencing spiritual depth.
- What challenges you? Everything feels hard right now.
- What is the transformation you are seeking? Transform struggling into thriving.
- What is your view on money? I’m more focused on spiritual things.
- What is your physical experience? I have so many health issues, I am afraid of what my body is doing.
- How do you think people perceive you? They think I’m a mess.
- What is your top priority now? Love
- What is your top burning question? How am I going to survive this?
My test results are:
“You are in the Initiation Stage of the Creative Spiritual Journey
Right now you are being initiated by your spirit to take a journey. Often Initiations come in disguise as something difficult, challenging, painful or traumatic. The reason spirit calls us in such dramatic ways is because it knows it needs something that will get our attention. The challenges you face today are opportunities to deepen your connection with your spirit. Now is the time to take a Creative Spiritual Journey to heal and transform into the person you are born to be.”
“The recommendation is to Transform your Fears. The Initiation stage offers an opportunity to heal deep fears and inner wounds. Transforming your fears is critical to moving through the Initiation stage of the journey. It allows you to step into the life you are born to live. The Transform your Fears audio is designed to guide you through your fears and limiting beliefs so you can be who you dream of being.”
Well I do believe this quiz best sums up where I am at. I am currently going through health problems on the verge of starting a creative spiritual journey “Walking in This World” journey which is basically Artist’s Way 2 on Monday March 19 going to June 18, 2012. A synchronicity, I also have an oppotunity to faciltate a talking circle and the first day I was to begin I get a head cold and lose my voice. I need to take time to heal, rest, and dream. I slept so much I was unable to do a single Morning Page unfortunately since I slept well past the morning in order to heal.
I was able to take breaks doing my online puzzle game hunting down clues and playing memory games. So, far I have acquired a significant number of trophies. I completed a quest that rewarded me with a huge Gold Dragon that I feature on my estate. Looks like a large rummage sale though with all the awards and purchases I have placed on the grounds. lol
Recovery issues are about fears and patience. I love the idea of starting a new level of “Artist’s Way” journey through “Walking in This World” and facilitating the talking circle. Both are in line with my dreams and desires, but both take commitment and work. I have been feeling anxiety over startin new projects. I am the kind of person that is used to hiding. It takes a lot of me to muster the courage to rise to the occasion. I often find myself wanting to express myself fully but then I block myself. I want to tap the potential that is within me especially in the creative and spiritual areas of my life. I know fear is stopping me being fully who I am. I desire to be comfortable being seen who I am. I enjoy feeling my life has a purpose and the creative juices flowing. I want to shift my perspective to joy.
When fear shows up I feel like avoiding, lack of clarity, feeling tired, feeling overwhelmed, doubting whether I can do something, and worrying about how I’ll be perceived. I want to transform the fears that are keeping me stuck, to tap into my courage, to create a life that supports my dreams, to return to a flowing state once fear has struck, and to expand and evolve into my potential. But all of this takes patience such as handing over my fears to my higher power, letting go and letting God, and saying the serenity prayer. Slowly, I am learning the tools to deal with my fears and to take steps into prosperity.
I also took another Laura Hollick quiz that asked “What kind of creative spirit are you?” The response after the test was that I was a Spiritual leader. I looked back at the rest of my life and I have seen that spirituality is the richest area of my life that I enjoy exploring and I do see myself with leadership potential in this area. I know people have said to me that they could see me as a spiritual leader before I even took this quiz.
Two weeks to starting “Walking in this World.” Wednesday my second attempt at facilitating the talking circle.
My Love Book
Sun July 11th or as I would like to say Lucky 7-11 is my birthday. It’s also the new moon and a solar eclipse on that very same day. One spiritual mother told me that I needed to focus on love on my birthday to set my intentions. Another said to sit with what brings you joy on the inside, and express this joy in your outer world.. sharing it with others.
My birthday wish is to celebrate love for the entire month of July. Everywhere I go people are wishing me Happy Valentine’s month or ♥Happy Love Month ♥ I wanted something I could engage people with cause I value relationships. So I decided to play DJ Buffy and I began requesting song requests from people. I would try to go out and find a video of their song and I would write a dedication to them. I love the interaction that I have been receiving from people as I contemplate and explore love in all of it’s beautiful dimensions. Self love, romantic love, true love, love of the Creator, etc.
I am a part of a sacred circle of women. In this source of women’s spirituality I find the security that I have always craved. Within this sacred space I find the acceptance I have always yearned for. The divine feminine is honored and cherished. The energy that is at the heart of this special circle is most profound, radiates, and surrounds all those that are there. I had this desire for women’s spirituality for the longest time. I was on a quest to find where my female spirit could heal and play. I searched various places within my community where I would feel welcomed as a woman. I talked to random women on the street, on the bus, or anywhere I would encounter them. I sought out spiritual centers and churches seeking for the right group of women to immerse myself in. A place where my creativity could flourish. A place where I could laugh. Where I could pray. Where my spirit could dance. After tonight, I think I found confirmation that I found that place… my Moon Circle.
Tonight, I explored my creative side by creating an artbook titled “My Love Book” during the Moon Circle tonight. When I received my name Wabun anung which means Morning Star in a native naming ceremony at 17 years old I instantly envisioned that my path was love. The gifts of life, hope, and light are all given in the act of love as part of the glory of the dawn. My essence is love…my path is to love. I need to claim my birthright. And being part of this awesome connection with the female heart I am encouraged to focus on that power within me of love and around me.
So, I chose to center my focus on my book with love. This is the first time I ever created a multimedia book. I loved the choices of printed, glitter, marbled, and colored paper. There were a ton of stamps to choose from. Magazines to explore for images. A bowl full of vintage pictures. Lots of various kinds of ribbons. My inner child jumped for joy. I love having the opportunity of creating. I played with my book as I assembled the images that I wanted to put together. It was absolutely exhilarating having that time to explore with other women.
The following are pages from”My Love Book.” Enjoy.
There is only one happiness in life to love and be loved.
True Love: The trinity between Creator, myself, and the man Creator has picked for me as my true love partner. ♥ July 8, 2010. No. 526715.
Each night the moon kisses secretly the lover who counts the stars. ~ Rumi
Happiness is only possible with true love.
Let your teacher be love itself.
“O sisters, let us remember the rhythms of our mother and our mother’s mother; the rhythms of life itself.” B.Camera – MoonCircle tonight!
I set out to reconnect with the women’s spirituality. The power of the sacred feminine. I wasn’t sure where I was meant to be, but it was no surprise that I discovered the rightful place right under my nose. It’s at the women’s retail store and wellness sanctuary that I often go to since it first opened. I have been consistently building relationships with the women who go there and it has been an exciting journey indeed. I heard of the Moon Circle, but I had never attended such a group to go. I felt inspired called.
So, I show up and I was pleased to already know half the group and the other half I didn’t know at all. I was caught in the mystery of the night and the new moon. The leader spoke of the power of women’s wisdom handed down the ages and she explained the significance of the moon and her different faces. I have heard about Grandmother moon all through my life, but when she spoke it was like I was introduced to Grandmother moon for the first time and she greeted me as her granddaughter.
We went around and lit our candles. But for some reason I striked the match over and over and I was not successful in lighting a flame. I know I get nervous around fire, perhaps I was afraid to let my light shine. However, that was okay because my sister next to me said “It’s okay just light your candle with my flame.” That made me feel supported, accepted, and loved.
We began to drum and I shooked my rattle and all of a sudden I was inspired to sing. The drum beats surrounded me with the resonance of the rattles shaking and my single lone voice rose. It just made me feel like I was sharing my gift of singing. It was very special. Later the leader said she appreciated that I shared my gift with the circle.
I liked eating this very tasty gourmet popcorn. It’s really good quality stuff with chocolate and such. It hit the right spot. I also enjoyed the pecan sandies. Then I went at writing my intentions for the new moon. I wrote out first for forgiveness. Then I asked to open my heart. Then I wrote about developing my novel which is something that was very important to me. I was so happy to be making these connections with my true intentions. Things are lining up indeed. I am grateful for that. Then I focused my intentions by the Love bridge and released them to the loving arms of the universe. That’s what matters to me the most.
Then I meditated upon my life and I discovered that yes my prayers are being carried to the Creator. I discovered that I have to allow for divine timing to happen. I also need to learn not to sabotage myself that I have the key to let myself out of my own prison. I also needed to realize that I am meant to be accompanied along this journey. Which I am truly grateful for.
Thank you so much Grandmother moon for embracing me as your granddaughter. Thank you for blessing me and for watching out for me. For guiding me. Thank you calling my name for introducing me to my sisters. For helping me to see my own inner light so powerful with my index finger I can charge a penny to stick on a wall for a long time by the power of my dreams.
I took a course in HOME ALTARS: Changing Your Consciousness at women retail store and wellness sanctuary. And through the group process I decided to create an altar in my refrigerator on one shelf. The guardian of my refrigerator is Hello Kitty which is fun and playful and forever a part of my life. So I got a pretty basket and filled it with oranges for good luck and then wrapped the basket with a Hawaiian leis. I made a pitcher of grape Koolaid my favorite childhood beverage. A box of Poptarts cause it’s my new found joy. A basket of seedless red grapes which in the Word represents charity. A bowl of cantaloupe represents sun and in appreciation we all dance and partake in the sun’s offerings. ~Buffy
Greetings fellow travelers,
Today’s Artist’s Date is Day 20 and I decided to paint. I am very happy to play with glitter and experiment. I kept seeing the image of a sunrise in my mind. I wanted to try to recreate the image I saw in my mind, but then I decided to add glitter. And I am pretty heavy handed with the glitter. lol I have glitter in all sorts of rainbow colors and I had a fun time playing with color combinations.
It took me awhile to unblock so I could paint. I became blocked when I had to leave art college after an artist I loved took his life. It reminds me of the tragedy of Van Gogh. I basically stopped painting, but this time it’s coming back to me. I put on a DVD of the movie musical Mama Mia to help keep me in a good mood and it worked. The Mama Mia DVD also came with a bonus DVD of my favorite movie Xanadu. I have been in musical heaven for the last couple of days. Great sound track on both of them and I was singing along as I painted. It felt good that painting felt good for a change. I could paint for the sake of painting. I never know what to do with my paintings though I tend to give them away. On my walk past the golf course today I ran into a local art friend who told me he is planning to open an art gallery downtown and he invited me to show my paintings there. I felt very happy about that. Just when I began to paint an opportunity to show my work was brought to my attention. What a beautiful synchronicity.
This is an image of a woman that bubbled up while painting. She has purple eyes and green & blue hair. I often when I painted would paint women’s faces with strange patterns, colors, or images. Some say they’re my self portrait of my otherworldly self. I don’t know I just enjoy creating them. One time when I was in a foster home I would decorate a painting of a woman with bubbles surrounding her hair. I like to play around with the images and there are alot of great things to explore in the world. I was unbelievably happy to be painting again. I covered a piece of paper with paint with a preliminary painting then I reproduced it on 8×11 canvases.