Queen Buffy and her Bubble Wand
My Artist Date was to have a picnic in my private park. I had Mc Donald’s Chicken sandwiches and Shamrock Shake. I was surprised to discover they now come with a cherry. I sat in the sun next to the daffodils and listened to the birds sing. I stared into the wildness of the trees. I then pulled out my camera and took some still pictures and I started to film a video titled “Bubbles.” I have this 80 oz of fruit scented Bubbles and a cool bubble wand. I filmed myself blowing the bubbles until I got light headed. Then I came home and I found a virtual keyboard and recorded myself playing the virtual pan pipes. It was cool they had other sounds to play with too like steel drums. One friend saw my video and asked if my new name now is Bubbles? I like that actually because lately people have been describing me as bubbly. Bubbly Buffy. lol
Super Miracle Bubbles 80 oz of FUN!
Alright today’s Artist’s Date was to walk into a church I never have been into before. Kinda like church shopping. This church kept coming to me in my dreams and I wanted to investigate to see if it had what I was seeking. What is strange about this church is that it doesn’t have a sign so I had no idea what the name of this church was. In I stepped in and I noticed immediately alot of handouts on some on a spiritual retreat to find your purpose which I collected and was very interested in. Then I saw things for a women’s meetup which I am also very interested in because I am actively seeking women’s spirituality. I didn’t know anybody there, but I liked the banners that were inside the church and I found them very eye catching especially the one with the banner above.
The words spoken by the Pastor was intriguing me as he spoke about the arc of the covenant and he talked about getting past the veil and being in the presence of God. So much with what he was saying resonated with me and I strongly felt that I needed to be there. During the music I felt answers to my prayers coming to me and I felt God’s presence so strong around me and in me…I cried so hard during the service. I had never experienced such an intense feeling of God’s presence around me before. I had been quietly asking myself am I to stay or leave this place. I felt all of a sudden I needed to be there. There was something there for me. I didn’t know what that would be. But so many synchronicities kept coming to me and happening. I felt my soul break open and out poured grief and suffering. I kept hearing Creator say to me you don’t have to carry this burden alone anymore, give it to me give it all to me. All the pain. All the tears. Everything. I saw in my mind’s eye letting the grief of the recent events that had transpire being passed over. I felt so connected it was unbelievable. I thought by leaving my former church I was going to wander lost and not know where to go and then all of a sudden in this church in a short amount of time I felt like I was in the right place at the right time.
After I watch some baptisms I remembered my baptism with cedar and water that my Native American foster mother placed over me saying that Jesus would always be with me when I was 16 years old. I was about to leave this new church when this woman walked past me and I absolutely had to introduce myself to her. I am so glad I did. I hit it off with her instantly and I was feeling such a deep powerful connection. She just opened up to me and revealed some very intimate and intense things about herself to me, things that I desperately needed to her. And I found I might be able to help her too. Love those win win situations. I asked her to lunch and she agreed and she took me to a Mexican restaurant. We shared our passion for Mexican food and the Spanish language, she told me she loved to do artwork and wanted to do artwork with me. She said she loved to paint with watercolors in tubes. We had absolutely so much in common, it was if we were always friends. I had enchiladas and Jarritos Limon soda which she is already reminding me that I need to watch my sugar cause I am diabetic. She decided to pay for my meal. I was truly grateful. Than I asked where else would she like to go? I suggested how about a park? She said sure but she wanted to go back to her home briefly.
Enchiladas and Limon Jarritos
I got to see her home. I noticed she loved pink and purple just like I do. I shared how as a little girl I loved pink and as I got older I added purple. It was so much fun to share the same favorite colors. She has this most beautiful painting of the ocean by her father painted on her wall with a purple frame. I noticed these beautiful pink and purple beaded ornaments she had hand made and she said she could share with me how she made it. I also got to meet one of her cats Gideon. I love the story she told me about how her cat appeared at her home from the street and it went away and she said to herself that if she was meant to keep him that he would come back. And came back he did. She even showed me the scripture about Gideon in the Bible and it was very interesting story. I gained a lot of insight from it when I read it and how it applied to my own life.
We ended up getting back in the car and we went to a local park that had by the Fox river. I had only been to this park once before and when I had I just broken up with my fiance in June 2009. I had praying to Creator about letting my ex go and I said a special prayer for a special man and I told the Creator the truth of my heart, but I asked the Creator what Creator’s will was on the situation. Then I have come full circle and I was back at this same place about a year later. And I have insight of where I am heading and what I am supposed to do for this special man in my life. I went to the river with my friend and I experienced the immense peace and calm of her presence. I could feel a ton of tension just melting off my left shoulder and I took some video of the river which I later added me playing the Native American flute. I laid down on my back and let the earth absorb my sorrows and grief I looked up the sky and saw the clouds pass by through the branches of the trees and as I laid there with my arms outstretched out I felt something touched the palm of my left hand and I looked over and I saw a clump of seeds that had fallen perfectly and landed in my hand. I felt what a wonderful gift of new life to be planted in my life.
My latest video is titled 365 Artist’s Dates…yes I said 365. I have made a conscious decision to take on 365 Artist’s Dates with ideas inspired by the Artist’s Date Book by Julia Cameron which is a companion volume to the Artist’s Way book. My friend from the online Artist’s Way Circle said that she has been reading about my adventures for the past few days and she said that it sounds like I am on a journey of self discovery. She went on to say that it’s good to hear that my photo sessions and the healing that I undertook that day. She also said that it sounds like a shamanic journey. I find that an interesting perspective. I think I am just having a whole lot of fun seeing everything around me with new eyes. It’s inspiring me to write poetry, paint, sing, and dance. My friend who I call Mom says just remember to rest. Such a mom thing to say. lol
Maybe I am on a sort of self discovery. All I know that is when I begin an Artist’s Date I am consciously inviting the Universe to speak to me. I become very receptive to all the sights, sounds, textures, tastes, and touches that I experience as I go on my Artist’s Way journey. I get really excited about each one I have been doing. So far since I made this conscious decision I am on Day 15 and it has been really helpful for me to really have a great experience. I love it and I am very happy.
I am living a great mystery and I am playing the detective looking for clues everywhere where I can. I am listening and reaching out to new people. I am exploring my world with fine tooth comb. I am using all of my senses for directions. For example in today’s Artist’s Date I left my house and determined my direction randomly by the flip of a penny. The first choice was heads go left and tails go right. I got tails and proceeded to go right. I reached a point after I walked and I discovered that I could go forward tails or go left heads so I flipped again and turned left when I got heads. This randomness I found myself walking in a street I never ventured before. I noticed this large heart ornament on the front of the house down the block and it spoke to me. I feel like my heart compass is being activated and leading me down the corridors which I find very cool. I am happy about that. I am finding out what matters to me the most.
Another friend on Facebook has been reading about what I am doing and she discovered a quote that she posted on my wall which I find humorous.
I am lost and have gone to find myself
If I return before I come back,
please ask me to wait.
Another friend however had posted that
“Not all who wander are lost.”
Yes I am wandering sort of as I do my Artist’s Dates and they are quality time with myself which is building self love and self discovery. But I am very much guided by every step I am taking. My ultimate Life GPS system is the Creator who can see everything from a tower and I am on the ground in the forest with a phone and I am calling up asking for directions. And the directions are coming every step of the way. I feel lead and it’s leading me to myself, true love, and to home. That’s awesome and I am having a great time as I am on my journey.
Many past Artist’s Dates I have spent behind my apartment building which is like a private park. It’s there I watch bunnies hop and a coyote appeared and looked at me. I like to take off my shoes and walk on the grass. There’s a white picnic table there and I stare at the trees. Like this tree one among many that I have taken a picture of. I enjoy taking pictures of my special park with my new digital camera. I like this particular picture because I like to look at the lines of the branches, sometimes I see people and faces looking back at me. Sometimes the wind blows and it looks like the branches are waving at me.
Once upon a time when I used to be in a relationship, we would lay on the grass at night and stare at the stars. After I lost that relationship I went there to grieve, as I buried away pieces of my heart with bitter tears. I also went there on my knees as tears fell for the death of a great grandmother I never had the chance to meet. I looked up and three rabbits were staring back at me. I cried remembering the last conversation I had with her on the phone. I wanted to know more about where our family came from and she told me stories of our relatives and the history of my people. I told her Great Grandma Christine I love you. Later, my Grandfather told me that she told him about the phone call and how I told her I loved her and how happy that made her and how I listened to her stories. I am so glad that despite the fact I couldn’t get to her physically that I made that one last phone call just before she died because now I carry her stories and love in my heart. To my private park I went with tears.
My private park is my healing space. My apartment faces the park in the back and it made me happy to look out of my apartment out to all those gorgeous trees. My apartment faces east so it’s so beautiful to wake up and watch the pink sunrise and the light rays penetrating the branches. This is the best view in any apartments I have ever lived in. I remember when I first checked out this apartment building I took one look of the trees in the window and I instantly fell in love with the apartment.
One of these days, I am going to take this huge bottle of fruit scented bubbles I bought on a previous artist date and I am going to blow bubbles which is one of my favorite childhood past times. I would stand on my Gamma’s porch and fill the wand with rainbow iridescent soap and then hold it out over the ledge and I would let the wind rapidly blow a succession of bubbles out. It would make me giggle watching how fast and rapidly these bubbles would fly. I would just do that over and over and I would lose all sense of time.